I’m absolutely amazed at how well he’s adjusted, it’s almost as if nothing at all has happened to him. He now jumps up and jumps down really easily. He runs faster than I can catch him, which I know from experience. I swear that right after the surgery he was depressed and upset about it all but now he’s back to his old sweet and grump at times self.
When my BIL and SIL came over for dinner recently they were sitting on the sofa. Pilot jumped up and sat right between them like they were best buddies. He then curled up and snuggled both of them and seeing that reminded me of why we went through what we went through. He’s such a special little guy (and I don’t say cat because he’s so much more than a cat). Here are some more pictures of his journey, those these are about a month or so old.
You can see more pictures in his Fighter Pilot album.
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So I’m only like a 4th of the way into the book and I haven’t even gotten to the kinky stuff yet. I have to point out already the stuff that is irritating the fuck out of me. I want to also point out that I do have the ability to suspend belief and gloss over stuff. I never notice on my tv shows that the actors playing teenagers don’t really look like teenagers but grown adults, however Manly Man always notices this and points it out to my dismay. Problem is, I can’t ignore bad dialogue, I have to believe that the lines being spoken are what people would actually say in that situation. I also can’t deal with adjectives and phrases being used over and over again, it’s grating.
I don’t know if these things bother me because I was an English major and have been writing since the age I could…well…write. Either way, I can’t seem to get past it. I’m hoping the smut picks up and can stop noticing the horrid writing.
Things that already irritate me:
- She referred to her “satchel”
- She mentioned she’s clumsy, what is with these chicks having to be clumsy?
- She also loves the word murmur just like the Twilight twat.
- She keeps saying over and over again how handsome Christian is. Listen, you shouldn’t have to keep telling me, the writing should infer that.
- So far Christian is a dickhead, did anyone else notice this? He keeps making demands of her.
- The name Anastasia Steele is so completely and utterly ridiculous, how can I take that seriously?
- I think the inner dialogue is the worst part. It’s so bad sometimes I’m tempted to skip ahead but the whole damn thing is inner dialogue.
- “Laters baby” I just about gagged.
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Politics are more in our face than ever right now. I have a lot of opinions on stuff that is happening right now and I’m not good at keeping those opinions to myself. In some ways I suppose it’s a good thing because people know where they stand with me one everything but it’s probably more of a bad thing because it makes a lot of enemies. I’m kind of used to making enemies, not everyone likes me. I’m used to it, mostly.
I see stuff that irritates me and I post it on Facebook, sometimes I probably go too far. I know that I have friends on Facebook (and several family members) that have very different views than me. Honestly I wish these people posted more of their own opinions because I think this is how we learn from each other and grow but I realize that for many people it’s probably a lot easier not to put your opinions out there.
Beyond my feelings about women’s rights, gay rights, taxes, capital punishment and guns I really fucking hate ignorance. I personally feel that Fox News is the devil incarnate and goes out of it’s way to lower the intelligence of our country. I don’t hate Mitt Romney but I really loathe 1%ers like him. I hate Rush Limbaugh and have ever since my bigoted/racist grandparents listened to him every day and talked of him as if he were Jesus. Rush is a fucking clown.
I wish there were more conservatives that spoke intelligently and weren’t just trying to reach out to the lowest common denominator. In the past when there wasn’t anything else to listen to while sitting in traffic I’ve listened to a couple different asshats on 96.9. I have listened to them because I want to hear the other side and learn more beyond what I know right now. I’ve actually adjusted my opinions on things, you’d be surprised what I actually believe in.
I actually am not in favor of illegal immigrants, I think if I’d have to jump through hoops to be a citizen in England or France then they should have to do the same in the US. I think English should be the main language in the US and I shouldn’t have to go into a Dunkin Donuts and not be able to order because I don’t know Spanish (that happened to be once). I believe people should be able to drink soda if they want and that 2 men should be able to get married. I also think welfare is incredibly and disgustingly flawed. I do not think we should get rid of it, I think it needs to be monitored and fixed. I am not in favor of affirmitive action, it should be about who is most deserving of the job.
What this country really needs is more people in the middle who aren’t right or left. People against corporate greed but also against illegal immigration. People against pointless wars but making sure people aren’t screwed over by healthcare. So anyway, I’m too open and I know this. I’ve irritated people with this quality of mine for as long as I can remember. I just wish more people put it out there because keeping it inside hasn’t changed anything yet.
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I guess when people need a new British show to watch they come to me. I love that even if it is like a neon sign about what a dork I am and how little of a life I have (particularly in the winter months). I’m always looking for a new UK show to glom onto but I’ve seen so many at this point it’s hard to find new ones. I even started an IMDB list: Best British Series.
I’ve also now started a bit of a side hobby. I’ve started the blog British Telly on tumblr and there is also a Facebook Page and Google Plus Page. I’m not sure anyone cares about it like I do but I figured all the opinions and information I have on all these shows might as well be focused somewhere other than bombarding all my friends on twitter and my personal Facebook.
So there you go, share this with anyone you know who is a big Anglophile like me. Now, if only someone paid me to do this.
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Maybe it’s me being really sensitive, it’s been known to happen, but I get the feeling that some people just assume that if you are overweight it means you aren’t trying to be healthy. I admit, I’m not perfect, I make mistakes but just about every single day I am trying and trying really hard.
I think it’s important to understand that not everyone has the same struggle with weight loss. Things that factor in are age, genes, illnesses and lifestyle. I’m 34, which means my metabolism has slowed almost entirely so most of what I do makes no difference in weight loss. I have shitty genes which have made it difficult my whole life. I have hypothyroidism, which I’ve written about before, sometimes it drags me down so much I can barely function much less go to the gym. I work 40 hours a week and commute between 10 and 20 hours a week. By the time I get off of the highway (with still 20 minutes to drive home) sometimes I just can’t get to the gym. I suppose you can still hold that one over me but add in the hypothyroidism I am nearly falling asleep at the wheel.
Right now I feel drained and weak, like my arms have weights attached to the wrists. Truthfully, this may be because of the croissant I had this morning, which wasn’t a good idea but I didn’t leave enough time to get ready this morning and was rushed. I was already hungry on the road after 20 minutes and knew I’d go nuts stuck on the highway. Still, this was my bad and I knew it at the time. I got myself a smoothie from Starbucks later though.
Sometimes I feel like I’m lazy and pathetic, maybe that’s part of it but I know that it’s so much more than that. I know I’m not just lazy but that I feel like I’m being dragged down sometimes. It’s not just being tired a lot but feeling lightheaded, foggy and drained. The best way I could explain it would be to suggest you walk around carrying a 20 lb weight on your back. I remember how it felt not to have this so I know there is a better way to live.
I probably need to find the right doctor, because the doctors I’ve found haven’t helped at all. I need to figure out what can get me out of the fog and what can give me more energy, it’s often avoiding sugar and white flour. Problem is I’m already at a point where I constantly crave it but I do a pretty good job of avoiding it.
So when people treat me like I’m not trying I want to cry, if you only fucking knew.
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You know how you know you are too connected to a tv show? When you hear a song and think “this song sounds like it was on Skins” so I decide to look it up to find out if it was. I look on the trustworthy Wikipedia and it was not in any of the Skins episodes. So I figure I was wrong, oh well.
Then I decide to find out more about the song because I really like the song, I google it and am reading about the background of the song. What do I read?
Frontwoman Alisa Xayalith recalled to the NME the inspiration for this song: “I remember being up at two in the morning playing with a main key line, the next day I showed it to Thom and we made a demo. I spent the rest of the day watching Skins and I got inspired by that rebellious spirit. Everything is so romanticised and exaggerated on that show. It makes you wish you had a teenage life like that. So I wrote lyrics that inspired dreaming and youthful exuberance.” (from Songfacts)
I told Manly Man this and he was just shocked. Yeah, I somehow could tell that this song was about the show Skins. I’m a 34 year old married woman who is that connected to a British show about hormonal teenagers who get drunk and do drugs a lot. Oh well, I suppose there are worse things to be connected to.
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I have basically no cable anymore (or what I lovingly call “Ghetto Cable” which is about 15 basic channels) I survive mostly on Netflix and a little bit of Hulu Plus. Just when I think I’ve watched everything I end up finding something new to watch. It’s like heaven for me, I love finding new shows or finding old shows to watch again. So here is my list.
Skins (duh) – Though I think there are only 5 seasons up right now but I assume the last season 6 will be up eventually. I think I’ve explained this show enough, don’t you? Just watch it and report back. I had to take a break from Skins I’ve watched it so much…much like celibacy but for teenagers that have sex and do drugs.
Friday Night Lights – There is no show like this. I avoided it for a while because I thought it was about sports but trust me if I enjoy it, anyone can. I dare you not to love these characters.
Greek – Surpsisingly well written for an ABC Family show (sorry but Secret Life of an American Teenager is unwatachable) and the characters are easy to love. I had a lot of fun getting into this show and blew right through it.
Breaking Bad – If you want something intense that will blow your mind. It’s the best show on television, just ask anyone else who has watched the series.
Arrested Development – I didn’t think I’d even like this show but I loved this show. Manly Man and I would watch this and just laugh until we peed our pants and then of course we had to go and put on new pants and watch more.
My Boys – It’s nothing brilliant by any means but it’s fun and charming, great for a lazy day.
The IT Crowd – It’s British. It’s hysterical. It’s a must.
How I Met Your Mother – Always a joy, even watching episodes multiple times.
Parks & Recreation – It was because of Netflix I came to truly appreciate this great show, so funny.
Keep an eye out for part 2 of this list, I have many more.
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So I’ve learned a lot in the last week since my furkid Pilot had to have his back leg removed. He had a tumor and the best option to save his life was to remove his leg entirely. I was scared, I won’t lie. I was afraid he might never be Pilot again. I was afraid he might not make it through the surgery. I was afraid (and still am) that the cancer spread past his leg. The fear was palpable and I cried constantly for days.
You can see how his leg looked before the surgery in my post here. I want to share my journey on here for other people who are going through this process as well and want to know more about it. I wish I had found a blog post to help me through this at the time.
First you should know every cat (or dog) is different. While some cats might not be able to handle this drastic change to their body other cats will thrive with three legs. We are lucky that Pilot is a tough kitty and I guess the fact that we smother him with love all the time doesn’t hurt.
We took Pilot to the Orthopedic Surgeon on Thursday and we were told that if his cancer had spread they would have to put him down but if it had not they would remove the leg. I told them either way I wasn’t ready to put him down, he was still really happy and healthy other than his leg. Luckily they couldn’t find any proof it had spread so that day they removed his leg and the surgery went really well.
On Friday they let us pick him up and take him home. When they brought him out to us it was a shock to say the least. The spot where he once had a furry little white leg was bare pink skin with stitches. It’s still taking me some time to adjust to this.
They had said he wasn’t moving much and that he wasn’t eating or drinking water. I felt it was a good sign that once we brought him home he began eating, drinking water and walking around. What he needed was the comfort and love of home. We put a blanket for him on the ground, his own litterbox a few feet away and food and water right next to him.
We had to give him a medicine (liquid form) under his tongue twice a day. We had antibiotics to give him twice a day (we gave this to him crushed up in wet food) and he had a patch on his foot to manage the pain. We made sure one of us was always home to watch him.
We tried to block off his usual litter box with a trunk in the doorway because we felt it was too far away and too difficult to get into. Manly Man woke up that night and couldn’t find Pilot. It turned out he’d climbed on top of the trunk and dropped down on the other side to try to get to the litter box. We moved the trunk at that point and he eventually learned that he had a new litter box.
Within 24 hours he started walking really well and climbing up and down from the sofa. After 5 days he was running across the house, it was amazing. When I came home from work on Tuesday he curled up in my lap on the sofa like he did everyday before the surgery. He was quite nearly good ol Pilot again.
Warning TMI: I will note he had some trouble with pooping. I tried putting some fiber suppliment in his wet food and for a few days he didn’t seem to go. Then suddenly on Monday night he laid down in his litter box, which was strange. I went to go google what that meant (google can be your best friend in these situations) and as I was doing that I missed the diarreah that ended up on the wall and the floor. He had been blocked up but this helped, though maybe a little too well.
So it’s been nearly a week now since his surgery and he’s come so far. I have a feeling that eventually he’ll have forgotten what it’s like to have that 4th leg. I’m so glad I can be there for him and make this easier on him. I love being his mommy and filling his world with love especially since he does the same for me.