August 11th, 2010
Maybe I started the wrong time to turn my photography into a business. I mean, it’s pretty tough to do when you are broke. My biggest issue right now, despite needing new business cards and a new lens (always more lenses, always), I really need a new computer.
My current computer is a Compaq laptop that’s about 5 years old. It overheats, goes really slow sometimes and the coloring is completely off so all my photo edits look like shit when I look at them on my work computer. This is incredibly frustrating to spend hours editing and have to toss it all, over and over again.
I think I want to get a MacBook Pro but that may be a far reach for me right now. I figure I can start to save up money from my shoots and maybe at least be able to put a big downpayment on one. It seems insane to even do this when we have such money problems but I can’t continue building my business without upgrading at this point.
I figure, my photography work isn’t what I consider a 2nd job, it’s something I’m building to potentially be something real in the future. If I don’t put some money towards my photography it’s never going to be able to get anywhere.
Sometimes we have to push ahead further than we think we can manage to get where we need to be. That or I need to find a sugar daddy or momma.
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July 28th, 2010
I need to get healthy. At this point in time the only exercise I am getting is walking to and from my car and my photo shoots. I know I am not getting enough exercise and I know I need to eat better. My problem is, right now I have so much on my plate (yeah yeah har har) how am I supposed to make my health a priority as well?
Right now my #1 priority over everything is going to work which is only 40 hours a week but I also commute 10-15 hours every week as well. I realize I’ve mentioned this like 1,365 times but hey, it’s a part of my everyday life. I can’t get away from it so neither can you.
I’m also working on photography which is incredibly consuming but also emotionally draining most of the time. If I’m not working on pictures and stressing if they are good enough I’m working with a client to setup another photo shoot or I’m just trying to figure out how to get by with the equipment I have, which is clearly lacking. It’s very hard to work on photos on my laptop when it’s constantly overheating and slowing down.
Then of course there is our financial situation, which is constantly in a downward spiral it seems. Right now we are deciding what bills to pay. Do we pay our mortgage? Do we pay our electricity? Do we choose over all to be able to eat and put gas in our cars? We can’t do all 3, that is for sure.
On top of all this I realize my health is in a bad state. I have not gained any weight in like 6 months or something but I haven’t lost any either. I don’t know how to fit in exercise when I can’t afford a gym and outside is hotter than hell. Working out inside is impossible when you can’t afford to run your air conditioner and your house is just too small to bounce around in.
So it sucks that I just can’t seem to put the effort in to eating the right foods and taking bike rides. I know I have to figure out a way to make it a priority but I just don’t know how to do it without completely losing my head in the process.
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June 28th, 2010
I keep hearing them talk on the radio about the Cats Not Kids bumper sticker (not on my car, on someone else’s but I did have it on my car before) and I don’t understand why this has been turned into such a negative thing. Yes, I adore my cats. Yes, I hug them and kiss them on the head several times a day. Yes, I talk to them. Yes, they are a part of our family. What’s so wrong with that?
It seems to me, to some people who choose to have children, that choosing to have pets instead means there is something wrong with you or maybe that it’s some sort of affront to them. Even if I had children I’d still adore my cats just as much as I do today because that is just who I am. My cats are not just pets or accessories or part of the furniture, they are family members.
What I find hard to understand is people who choose to have a cat or dog and then ignore them or get annoyed that they aren’t more like stuffed animals that just sit there and look pretty. Cats and dogs need attention just like humans do. Cats and dogs need love, not just food and water.
Also, you should know, just because I have more than 1 cat, and adore them, does not mean I’m crazy. It also doesn’t mean we never leave our house or that our house smells. In fact, I’ve found most houses that have dogs or children tend to smell more, the only thing about cats that smell is their litter box and if you keep that clean it’s fine.
There is a big difference between people who have a few cats and consider them a part of the family and people who have like 27+ cats. A BIG difference.
But why is it so upsetting to people that I treat my cats as my children? What’s the big deal?
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June 1st, 2010
I loved the show Sex and the City, it fulfilled the girly side of me for many years. I still love the show and watch it in reruns whenever I can. I was excited but trepidatious when the movie came out but I missed the characters so I went to see it or rather I was brought to see it for my bachelorette party.
While I enjoyed some of the movie, mostly little pieces here and there that reminded me of the show I watched for 6 seasons, but the rest of it was awful. I found it very long and drawn out, it probably could have been a 1/2 hour shorter.
I also found some scenes that were just horrifying to me and nothing like the show I remembered. Such scenes were the one where they show how Miranda hasn’t trimmed her bikini line and when Charlotte shits her pants. On my beloved SATC show that would have NEVER happened.
As far as the new movie is concerned I’m really annoyed that they decided to bring together the ONLY two gay men, who by the way hated each other on the actual show. I would have loved to see Stanford marry the guy he was with at the end of the show, that would have been very sweet. Instead they went with the Hollywood concept that everything just fits back together like a puzzle piece in the end. This article really says it all.
I must admit though, I’m torn between wanting to leave a show, that I still get excited to watch in reruns, alone and missing the characters enough to still want to see them continue on. It’s part of loving a tv show, even when you know it really needs to end it’s hard to let go. I know I will see this movie eventually but I am going to wait until I can see it on tv. Would I watch if they brought back the cast of Friends, sadly I would, even if it tainted all previous 10 years for me.
So yes, I will watch Sex and the City 2, eventually, but I may be kicking and screaming while I do it.
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May 24th, 2010
Note: sarcasm
- I drove all the way in to the doctors this morning on no coffee or food, that is over 1 hour in traffic.
- I was kept waiting at the doctor’s office for 45 minutes on no food or coffee.
- When I was finally brought in to the room they pricked my finger and then took blood from me, which wasn’t all that bad but then I had to drink this fructose concoction that nearly made me vomit.
- 1 hour later, after sitting in those stupid chairs still having had no coffee or food, they bring me in to take more blood. This time the “nurse” tried twice to take my blood and nothing came out. So she brought a “doctor” in to take my blood and my arm was nearly numb when she then decided to take it out of my HAND. That is when the crying and hyperventilating started. Somehow I seemed to annoy them. Mine you the sugar drink and no food is making my mood jump up and down.
- Because they are so nice they didn’t make me wait another hour and brought me in to take more blood from my hand, from the same exact spot (which btw really fucking hurts, a lot). The “nurse” kept telling me I was doing a great job, I wanted to spit back at her that she, however, was not doing such a great job.
- They make me wait another 15 minutes because the “doctor” wants to check to make sure I’m ok to leave but making me wait is only making me worse as I need to get food and coffee before I start throwing a fit.
- I pick up food, harf it down like I’ve never done before, then I go to Starbucks and order a coffee. They give me my coffee but with non-fat, which won’t do, not today, so they make me another one. I wanted to show all the needle holes in my arm to show him why I was being such a bitch but figured that probably would make me look crazier.
And here I am, wishing there was Kahlua in my coffee.
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