Life is Not a Movie

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I consider Twitter/Facebook a place to catch up with friends, laugh a little and make the day go by a little faster.

I have a handful of really close friends online that I trust implicitly, other than that it’s all up in the air.

I have never, that I can think of, sent anything to anyone anonymously. I find it cowardly and immature. If I really want to say something to someone via email or text I will do it as myself and accept the fallout. If I am too afraid to email someone as myself then I don’t email them at all.

I am not on Twitter, Facebook or anywhere else online to prove anything to anyone. I don’t need to prove my intelligence, my attractiveness or the quality of my marriage/life. If you don’t like me then just go away, I probably won’t even notice you gone.

I tend to have a gut instinct about people, right off the bat, but that is hard to do online as none of us are our exact selves on the internet. Many of us have more confidence online, I know I do. I also have a tendency to ignore my gut, which I always regret.

I’ve never done anything online, ever, to deserve a lot of the fucked up shit I’ve received. I’ve never stalked anyone, other than a couple celebs and is it even stalking if you just follow their Twitter? I’ve never attacked anyone online, I’ve said things I wish I could take back but I’ve never gone after anyone, it’s not my style.

I don’t give a shit how many followers I have. Most days I have no clue how many people are actually following me. The only thing I ever care about is interacting with people on my blog and if it doesn’t happen it doesn’t happen.

Sometimes shit just isn’t right and you have to just walk away, if any of you are ever sick of me or whatever then I am ok with that, it happens. Life is too fucking short.

How many are you just glad this post had nothing to do with Skins?

In the past 32 years…

I’ve learned that love comes when it’s ready, you can’t force it.

I’ve learned that pretty clothes don’t mean much unless you feel good from within.

I’ve learned that not everyone is meant to be in your life forever, some are just there for a moment.

I’ve learned that passion is a two way street so be passionate everyday.

I’ve learned that we never really grow up, we just pretend to be grownups when it’s needed.

I’ve learned that even when things seem the most bleak there is some hope around the corner.

I’ve learned that laughter can cure just about everything.

I’ve learned that sometimes there is nothing better than a good show, spending time with friends or a good cup of coffee.

I’ve learned that I’m not perfect and I don’t want to be…perfect is boring.

If you’ve seen my tweets in the last week you would know I’ve developed a fairly serious addiction and it’s regarding the show Skins. It’s like I was injected with a drug for a week or two and then the dealer is all “sorry, that’s all, take care.” Uhm, I’m hooked now and that’s all you want to give me? You’re just going to leave me hanging like this? How am I supposed to get my fill?

Luckily there is a bunch of videos online people have made but that is kind of like sniffing glue to alleviate your heroin addiction. Plus, the ending was…well I can’t say since most of you haven’t seen it but…wtf? I mean, are you trying to kill me you British twats? Was this all a plot just to torture me?

Then there is the Wild World video the cast made for the finale, that I plan to stop listening to eventually. Really. Warning: if you haven’t watched the first season entirely it gives some stuff away.

Skins – It’s a Wild World Video – Funny bloopers R us

I’ve come to learn that the whole Sid and Cassie romance is huge online, I mean HUGE. I thought at some point I would run out of videos of them to watch on youtube, nope not yet. I also won’t tell you how many videos I watched, it’s better that you don’t know.

I’m thinking about this show all the time, all during the day, when I go to bed and when I wake up. I have to watch just a little every few hours to alleviate…whatever. I can’t even follow any other shows or listen to audiobooks because my mind keeps wandering. I feel like I’m 14 years old and we all know how much it sucks to be 14.

There have only been a handful of shows that I’ve gotten this emotionally wrapped up in and the only ones I can really think of right now are My So-Called Life and Felicity. I am still upset about them ending MSCL because poor Brian was just left there and will forever be standing on the side of the road as Angela drives off with Jordan. I was so wrapped up in Felicity that when they went a direction that really bothered me I had to stop watching the show.

We all have our shows or whatever that we get all wrapped up in. For some of you it’s Star Trek or it’s Twilight or it’s Gilmore Girls or it’s something else. I do give you full permission to mock me. I can only hope that I will be able to move beyond this at some point and lead a normal life again.

Until then…I’ll just watch season 1 again…

I’ve gotten some awesome gifts over the years (psst it’s 15 days away) but here are some of the best I’ve received:

My  Hebrew Name Tattoo: Manly Man got this for me for Chanukah one year, what’s weird is the place turned out to have Hitler on it’s business cards…

A Bag Of Goodies: My SIL got me this for my birthday right after I met her when I joined the company she worked at. It is still one of the best gifts I’ve gotten and I try to do that kind of thing for my friends every chance I get now.

My One-of-a-Kind Moon Stone Necklace: Manly Man had it made for me at a jewelry store years ago, it’s one of my favorite pieces of jewelry.

Flowers At Work: That always makes my day, it’s happened a few times. Even better would be like an Edible Arrangement.

Personal Cupcakes: Twice Gwen has sent me cupcakes, nothing says love like cupcakes that look like boobs.

I pretty much always get electronics from my parents, which is awesome because otherwise we probably wouldn’t have a laptop or tv.

Other than all that, there is always my Wishlist (yes I’m pimping it, screw you)

Next week is a crazy week for me:

14th – 7 year anniversary. Not sure if we’ll do anything. I wish we could go away but we can’t afford it, not this year.

15th – FIL’s birthday, we’ll probably go out to dinner at some point.

19th – My bday and my SD’s bday.

21st – My 5th anniversary at my job *thud* that was me hitting the floor out of shear paralyzing horror.

I’m kind of needy this year, I haven’t cared much years before but this year I kind of wish I could have a real birthday for once. I don’t know what that means, I just want to feel like I matter a little and that I’m worth some effort. I haven’t felt like that since my wedding really (other than by Manly Man) and even on my wedding I never really got to feel that way with all the crap that came along with the whole event.

However, I still don’t want happy birthday sung to me, that shit has to stop at least after you turn 30. It’s the only humane thing to do.

Since I doubt many of -you have read my entire 100 Things About Me list so you may not know that I was once a fan fiction writer.

Ok, have you stopped laughing yet?

I’m serious, however I never got into slash writing and I only wrote about 2 shows and they were Felicity and CSI. Strange, I know, because the two shows are really nothing alike – except that they are both hour long dramas. However the other thing they have in common is two characters that I felt never got their due for a love story: Noel & Felicity and Greg & Sara.

Every once and a while I remember that I wrote these stories and how much fun it was. It’s been a long time since I have really shipped a couple, maybe as far back as Rachel & Ross (which btw is the ONLY couple I ever got to see end up together and it was a 10 year wait). When I say that I am seriously sappy I mean it, now you have seen this side and you can’t un-see it.

A piece from my Felicity story:

Felicity turned around towards Noel and looked up to his warm hazel eyes looking down into hers. They stared at each other for a moment as if they couldn’t look away and were almost afraid to continue. He touched her cheek gently as she bit her bottom lip in ecstasy. They felt like they were going to explode from the heat rising between them. Without being able to resist anymore he kissed her lips with all his energy. He was almost shaking from the intensity between them.

She then grabbed a hold of his tie and pulled it off as quickly as she could muster. She then unbuttoned his shirt as fast as she could and tossed it to the floor. Next he unzipped her dress and just let it fall off her moist body to fall at her feet. He then picked her up so her legs wrapped around his waist and carried her to the bed.

I wrote this like 6 years ago, my style of romance is a little different, a little less flowery. I do think some of my writing got pretty steamy.

Just days ago I realized I have found a new couple to ship and they are from Weeds. They have not ever been involved on the show and have only kissed once but only because they thought the cops had shown up. At first I thought it was dumb to suddenly have Nancy and Andy (her brother-in-law) have chemistry but I started to realize it’s been building for a while now.

I’ve started to write some for them but it’s harder than I planned since the show is more plot driven than character driven. I can’t really write it without the other characters and quite honestly, I know very little about the Mexican Mafia. I know, it’s shocking.

Anyway…now you can continue laughing…