I Still Care
I still care and I’m not going to pretend otherwise. Am I willing to get pulled back into drama and feeling bad about myself? No. But just because someone isn’t in your life doesn’t mean you don’t miss them. I don’t need to pretend to be tough and prove to everyone I’ve moved on when it’s clear that still talking about it means quite the opposite. I don’t think I ever stop loving someone and I don’t think I ever stop missing them. Yeah, I usually have to develop a thicker outer layer so I don’t continue to get hurt but that doesn’t change how I feel.
I just think it’s funny to post stuff to someone but in a way so it’s not directly to them. You can stand there and say “that had nothing to do with you” when everyone knows it did. It’s ok to miss me, I have my faults but I think there are qualities in me that one might miss. It’s ok to wish you could interact with me. It’s pride, and maybe fear, that I think keeps you from reaching out to me and being open to communication. If you ever really want to talk, I’m here, know that.
But when will you learn to make this over
That’s a good question, maybe one you should ask yourself.
But it’s good to know you still think of me…