I Want To Be Free
I want to be free of the depression that is consuming me. I want to be free of the hold my father has over me. I want to be free of the judgement from people that Manly Man can’t find work. I want to be free of the desperate need to feed my stress day in and day out. I want to be free of the exhaustion and the hopelessness.
Yes folks, this is an uplifting post for ya!
It’s been more than 3 years now that Manly Man hasn’t been able to find work. I know that people blame him including my father and who knows who else. I know they think this but there is nothing I can really say. I know he’s tried really hard and I know how desperate it is out there. I also know we’re in a situation right now where he has no car, which only makes the situation that much worse.
The only thing that keeps me from completely shutting down is spending time with my husband, my furkids and my friends. Also what cures some of the hours I could be spending over-thinking everything is taking photography, watching favorite shows and reading. This, so far, is what is keeping me from a complete and utter breakdown.
I keep telling myself things will get better but it’s awful hard to believe after more than 3 years.