I’m in a funk. I didn’t really realize how deep of a funk I was in until I realized I barely pick up my camera anymore. It used to be attached to me. I used to carry it around with me hoping a moment would jump out in front of me and beg me to snap it up. I can’t seem to find the love of it at the moment. I think it’s various things that are sucking the joy out of me.
- Our financial future and not knowing what is going to happen.
- Feeling so hateful towards myself.
- The lack of energy because of my health right now.
- The lack of energy because of my day job.
- My self-confidence.
- Lack of funds.
- Feeling lost.
There you have it. I don’t know what to do about it. I feel like a loser who gave up on her passion but I can feel it still inside of me, I just can’t seem to access it. I’m in the process of working through some stuff and finding the right path for me. I have some days when I don’t feel completely like giving up but most days I just wander through.
Don’t get me wrong, things are good, as good as they can be and we’re lucky. I just feel sort of stuck and I’m sick of it. I need a change as we all do every once and a while.