This is a Good Place
Things have changed a lot for me in the past few years. I got married, got into the photography business and important relationships to me ended. It’s hard for me to let go of people I care about, I’ll hold on until there is nothing left to hold on to. I’m like that girl who stays with the bad boyfriend for years until she has no choice but to walk away, except I do this with friends.
One friend I had to walk away from, whom I’ve been trying to walk away from for about 10 years now, was such an important step for me to take. She was toxic and troubled and always made me the bad guy. I even questioned sometimes if I was the crazy one but eventually I realized she was even worse than I had thought she was.
I haven’t talked to her in about 2 years, not since she told me I had “no soul” and then blocked me on Facebook. I was glad that I didn’t have to do the blocking quite honestly, she did what I didn’t have the heart to do. Well, things aren’t going so well for her now, our mutual friends have started to see how she really is and this friend of mine is putting up a fight. There is no fight left that I can see but she really can’t see the forrest for the trees.
So what happens? She sends me a FB request. The person who told me I had no soul and who blocked me has sent me a friend request? Really? She didn’t even send a message with it. It just shows me the headspace she is in that she thinks I would friend her.
I can’t lie, I’m tempted. I do miss her or rather the friend that I thought I had but I know that person doesn’t exist. I’m also tempted to see what is going on in her world but then that would mean I would have to go back into her world and I know that won’t end well.
I don’t know how things will change in the future but all I know is being on the sidelines of drama feels a lot better for me than being right smack in the middle of it. Things are peaceful. Things are good.