Sometimes life just gets out of your control and you have to stop and readjust. I don’t know if it has been finances, relationships or just the stupid weather that has brought everything into such a negative place but it’s not a healthy place to be. Sometimes the best decisions we have to make are not the easy ones.
When things go out of my control I reach for food and bad food at that. In the last month it’s been rare that I’ve eaten vegetables or drank a significant amount of water. I can feel it all over, my body is shutting down. I have no energy, I’m cranky all the time and on top of that is the insomnia, which only pushes everything to the maximum.
I’ve found myself surrounded by a lot of negativity lately and that in itself can really drag you down. It just seems to me so many people are so painfully unhappy but aren’t willing to address it. People just want to pretend like it’s not happening and hope it just goes away, but it never does. Ignoring problems is the best way to have them take over your entire life. I never want to feel like that, I’d rather deal with bad shit now than let it infest my life like a virus.
As spring is aproaching I want to revamp my life in a really positive way. I’ve chosen some books to read to bring some zen into my life. Once the snow is gone I want to do a serious spring cleaning in the house and get rid of a lot of stuff we don’t need. Manly Man and myself will start walking on a regular basis not just because it’s good for your body but I figured it gives us a chance to reconnect. I also want to be more careful with the food we bring into the house and the food we eat, we’ve let some bad habits get out of hand lately.
I don’t want to feel tired and angry all the time, it’s amazing how incredibly sick you can feel from anger. Life is too fucking short to be pissed off all the time, this spring is going to be all about pleasure.