Forgiving Myself

I could probably write an entire month long meme on what to forgive myself for. There are smaller things that any normal person should just let go of and there are bigger things that maybe one or two people in the entire world know about. There are things I’ve done to others and things I’ve done to myself.

In the end, I guess I forgive myself for expecting too much of myself and the world around me.

I forgive myself for expecting family members *cough* brother *cough* to actually try to have a relationship and then realizing I was the only one bothering at all.

I forgive myself for expecting my friends to think the way I do when very few people think anything like me, which is probably a good thing. I assume most people don’t want to be in deep thought for 80% of their conscious day.

I forgive myself for the expectations I put on my husband because expectations in a marriage can be incredibly destructive. No marriage can survive expectations that are just way too high and luckily mine aren’t all that high or often, but they happen.

I forgive myself for the unrealistic expectations I have for myself and that I beat myself up for not meeting on a daily basis. I forgive myself for setting the body image and professional expectations that are just unfair.

And from myself to myself, I forgive myself.

4 Comments

  1. Grant

    October 20, 2010 at 12:58 pm

    I forgive you too. You owe me a dollar.

    1. Robin

      October 27, 2010 at 9:13 am

      @Grant, damn, I guess I’ll just IOU.

  2. Pauline

    October 20, 2010 at 3:31 pm

    Sounds like you might be a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to yourself and others. I’m the same way, but am learning to not to expect constant perfection from myself and others and life in general. Things happen and people have quirks, which you cannot control. As long as your friends accept and respect you, then that’s all that matters 🙂

    1. Robin

      October 27, 2010 at 9:12 am

      @Pauline, I know, it’s something I work on constantly.

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