Chills

| January 25, 2010 | 23 comments

So if you want to know about my Portrait Party this weekend please visit my Facebook Page or my Photography site. Just know it knocked the shit out of me, I had no idea it was so much work but I enjoyed every single minute of it. I literally have bruises all over my body, I feel like I ran a marathon or at least maybe a mini marathon.

Problem is when I came home I was so tired it hurt and wanted to go right to bed. I felt kind of cold so I went to bed in pajamas, socks and a sweatshirt on top of that. Even with the flannel sheets and comforter I was complaining how cold it was. So Manly Man added some more wood to the wood stove and opened our door to let in the heat.

As time went on I felt colder and told him for some reason it was still really cold in there but he said it wasn’t, the heat was over 65. I tried to suck it up and just fall asleep but I couldn’t, I felt like I was sleeping outside.

I felt bad keeping him up so I went to the livingroom to be near the wood stove but as I curled up on the sofa with 2 blankets I was shaking and started crying. Manly Man came in and gave me another two blankets and wrapped them around me. I had him feel my skin and in fact it was very cold.

He went back to bed and I sat there with my teeth chattering for about 1 hour. I think eventually I warmed up and fell asleep and then went back to bed. I have no idea what that was, I tried to google it but never got anywhere. I feel a little better today but my knees are still sore and my right arm hurts.

No really, I’m not turning 52 next month I’m turning 32.

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  • bluepaintred

    i know that you had said on facebook that going into this you were fine, excited and not anxious, but I find that hard to believe. i think you were simply so excited that you were unable to feel the anxiety underneath and then, when you got home, and it was done, and over, and hot damn, a SUCCESS, it all just came out at once.

    The chills, the crying, IMO, it was the physical release of all the stress that had built up while getting to this point.

    Next time, you might still have to stress about Boston traffic as you look for lights, but you at least wont be stressing over the ACTUAL portrait party, and you wont have to deal with the emotional aftermath!

    (as for the knees – were you kneeling for any length of time for the photos, or crouching up and down a lot? I noticed that your camera was on a tripod, so the right arm is sore, obviously, becuase it isn’t used to being held up to the shutter in that position for long lengths at a time)

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @bluepaintred, I think you make a lot of sense, this was a huge thing for me and I had a lot to prove to myself and others. I actually didn’t end up using a tripod at all, I’m just not a tripod girl. I was crouching up and down. I kept kneeling and laying down on the floor and getting up on chairs. I even crawled on the floor some. My arm? I think I pulled a muscle.

  • http://dreaminginthedark.org B

    I saw some of the pictures on FB and it looks like it went really well! I’m sure your emotions just caught up to you one everything was over with! I’m sure you’ll be feeling fine soon!

  • http://www.kill-the-body.blogspot.com Gwen

    Whenever I have a major make-up project I get the same way. Actually, it’s funny that you said you feel like you ran a marathon because I always say the same thing. The last time I did a BIG project (all in, I worked for 8 solid hours to get it done) I felt sick for three days after.
    I think it’s from being so completely focused and (despite having a really good time) being stressed to the max while you work. When you finish, it’s like you get the entire work time’s worth of aches, pains, frustrations, stress, etc. dumped on you at once. I don’t know that it’s called anything, but I totally know what you’re talking about.

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @B, I’m sure too =)

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Gwen, you are always there to remind me i’m not the only weird one.

  • http://www.kill-the-body.blogspot.com Gwen

    Any weird you can do, I can do better. I can do any weird better than you… (No, you can’t! Yes I can! No, you can’t! Yes, I can!)

    *sorry, sometimes the soundtrack in my head slips out.

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Gwen, Admit it, your head has a constant soundtrack playing.

  • http://www.kill-the-body.blogspot.com Gwen

    Gladly as it totally does.

  • http://www.kill-the-body.blogspot.com Gwen

    Gladly, as it totally does. Well, that and a HIMYM-esque monologue voiceover track.

  • http://www.kill-the-body.blogspot.com Gwen

    Ignore the double reply.

  • http://darnedtoheck.blogspot.com/ Grant

    I thought for a second you wrote “pornography site”, but then I looked again and was disappointed.

  • http://piecesofmejen.wordpress.com/ Jen

    could be stress, or anxiety? I hope you feel better! you worked hard and it paid off! ;)

  • http://www.brightestblue.wordpress.com Pauline

    Wow! Sounds like quite the party! I looked at some of your photos-they are beautiful! (I particularly like the one of the woman with the cat)

  • http://www.brightestblue.wordpress.com Hannah

    Wow! Sounds like quite the party! I saw some of your photos and they look beautiful! (I particularly like the one of the woman with the cat)

  • http://dontwannahearit.com metalmom,

    I saw the shots and I must say that they were stunning. The idea of a photo shoot party is one that appeals to more than a few of my friends. I think that you feel more insecure about your talents than you should. You have a great eye for simplicity and it makes your subjects shine all the more.

    Great job!

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Grant, awwww *sadpants*

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Jen, it must have been, it makes sense.

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Hannah, somehow you posted twice with 2 different names. Thank you though.

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @metalmom, thank you so much… I want to do more of these but I need to start charging because I can’t afford to do this for free.

  • http://www.brightestblue.wordpress.com Pauline

    Oops! Sorry there was a glitch with my computer!

  • http://dontwannahearit.com Metalmom

    Obviously you SHOULD charge. Maybe $50 a head for a 4-person party? Or more people if you could handle it. I would love to see you make some money like that.

  • http://lifeisnotamovie.net Robin

    @Metalmom, Well I was thinking of charging for the photos but the shoot is free, I haven’t figured out the logistics yet.