Short And Sweet

  • I don’t have the energy for a real post today so you get bullets. I contemplated not posting at all but as I’ve said before, it makes me feel better to post something.
  • Yesterday I was dangerously close to a full blown panic attack. I’ve only had a few of them but I know when they are coming. My heart starts racing, my body goes numb and I end up on the verge of bawling.
  • I’m starting to think I may need to get some Xanax from my doctor now instead of right before the wedding like I had thought. cancelsubscription.jpg
  • If you are close friends with me there is a couple things you know about me, that I’m very sensitive (I get easily hurt) and that I’m very loyal but I can lose faith and trust very easily too.
  • Most things seem a little better after a cosmopolitan (Note to self: keep vodka on supply) :martini:
  • The majority of my stress lately has actually very little to do with the wedding, I just take it out on the wedding because the other stress I can’t do much of anything about at the moment.
  • I don’t know how it is I piss people off so easily, I really don’t. Somehow I always seem to be rubbing people the wrong way. Luckily, I seem to rub most of you the right way :robin:
  • I may need to take up S&M, anyone willing to be tied up and have me take all my aggression out on them? I’d do it to Erik but he cries like a little girl.

  1. Mr. Fabulous

    April 9, 2008 at 7:59 am

    Well, I am not sure what all is going on, but you know I am always here for you hon, even if I do steal a few items from your pack now and then.

    If you are going to have a complete breakdown, can you do me a favor? Have it this Sunday when you’re on the show. It will be good for ratings šŸ™‚

    Mr. Fabulous’s last blog post..Was God bipolar?

  2. Avitable

    April 9, 2008 at 9:26 am

    Maybe you should take some Xanax if you can feel the attack coming. And other than the wedding, what’s bothering you so much? Isn’t the point of your private posts so that you can vent about what’s actually happening?

    Avitable’s last blog post..Fucking Brighthouse

  3. B

    April 9, 2008 at 9:42 am

    I hope everything calms down for you soon and the stress starts to fade away a bit.

    B’s last blog post..Best Compliment You’ve Ever Received.

  4. DutchBitch

    April 9, 2008 at 9:44 am

    Awww Hon you are always rubbing me the right way (and you are a great rubber in all)

    And Erik and the S&M thing: gag him, so you can’t hear the crying… Problem solved. :rock:

  5. Robin

    April 9, 2008 at 9:45 am

    Fab – Sure, I bet if I hold onto it until Sunday I will really flip a shit. How much swearing is allowed?

    Avi – :hug:

    B – Thanks :hug:

    Dutchy – You always have such great advice.

  6. The Absurdist

    April 9, 2008 at 9:55 am

    You and I, we are twins. I don’t know how that happened, but we are.

    I am not that sensitive anymore, having dealt with constant criticism in the work place. But when the boss calls me into the office, I immediately thing, “Oh shit, what did I do wrong this time?”

    Get some Xanax. It’s temporary anyway. Or Klonopin. Like I said before, .25 or .5 milligrams will work fine for you, and that’s a REALLY small dosage. I take the same.

    And meditate. And stop worrying the fuck about what other people think. We always tend to focus on the bad things people say about us; we rarely focus on all the good things. Me included.

    I love you. And that’s all that matters. Save DF.

    The Absurdist’s last blog post..20Q Wednesday: Metalmom the Magnificent

  7. themuttprincess

    April 9, 2008 at 10:56 am

    Oh, Robin you are tougher than you think!!!

    And it isn’t the end of the world to have a panic attack… Just go in and see your Dr… Get something to tide you over, it is only temporary!!!

    themuttprincess’s last blog post..Happy Hump Day Ya’ll! (and random thoughts)

  8. Cheri

    April 9, 2008 at 11:08 am

    I’m sorry about your stress. I seem to have that problem too- rubbing people the wrong way. Difference is I don’t usually give a fuck. lol

    Cheri’s last blog post..Thoughts

  9. Heather B

    April 9, 2008 at 11:11 am

    Things will work out for you, you need some “me time” I think. I know the feeling though all to well.

    Then when your done with your “me time” come tie me up šŸ™‚

    Heather B’s last blog post..Crazy Bail Bondsman

  10. Gwen

    April 9, 2008 at 11:20 am

    You know what I hear is really good for getting rid of stress? Getting drunk and coming over to my place to show me your boobs. Strange, huh? But I hear that works really well. Maybe you should give it a try. I mean, if it doesn’t work at least you’ll be drunk and topless.

    Gwen’s last blog post..Big Pimpin’

  11. Robin

    April 9, 2008 at 11:24 am

    Absurdist – I’m way too fucking sensitive, it’s what I hate about myself most.

    Mutt – I’ve been really tough and together with everything for a long time now…until it just all blew up at once. I just hope it doesn’t get worse or I’ll need to be locked up.

    Cheri – Someone needs to teach me how to do that, I really do try.

    HeatherB – You are so good to me, I’ll be gentle :whip:

    Gwen – Drunk and topless, that does seem to help. I’ll be over at 9:00 pm so have alcohol ready.

  12. coffeeinkits

    April 9, 2008 at 7:35 pm

    One word: insitol!

    Insitol is a B vitamin that’ll help you calm down. Take a tablespoon of insitol powder with water or juice (or… in times of desperation… vodka) whenever you feel edgy. It’s harmless and you can even take it on an empty stomach.

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