I don’t have the energy for a real post today so you get bullets. I contemplated not posting at all but as I’ve said before, it makes me feel better to post something.
Yesterday I was dangerously close to a full blown panic attack. I’ve only had a few of them but I know when they are coming. My heart starts racing, my body goes numb and I end up on the verge of bawling.
I’m starting to think I may need to get some Xanax from my doctor now instead of right before the wedding like I had thought.
If you are close friends with me there is a couple things you know about me, that I’m very sensitive (I get easily hurt) and that I’m very loyal but I can lose faith and trust very easily too.
Most things seem a little better after a cosmopolitan (Note to self: keep vodka on supply) :martini:
The majority of my stress lately has actually very little to do with the wedding, I just take it out on the wedding because the other stress I can’t do much of anything about at the moment.
I don’t know how it is I piss people off so easily, I really don’t. Somehow I always seem to be rubbing people the wrong way. Luckily, I seem to rub most of you the right way :robin:
I may need to take up S&M, anyone willing to be tied up and have me take all my aggression out on them? I’d do it to Erik but he cries like a little girl.