I was talking with Gemini the other day about how online you can really be whomever you want to be. Problem is, if you create someone completely different from who you are you need to keep that up indefinitely. I’m a horrible liar so that would never work for me and I also get confused really easily, I don’t need to confuse myself.
So I was thinking about the fact that I don’t have a persona at all except for myself. I used to a long time ago go by a nickname online but I dropped that eventually when it just didn’t feel right.
Just for me personally, I had to really be myself or I had to decide to be someone else entirely. It’s hard to figure out what to do because by being yourself opens you up to a whole mess of stuff I won’t even bother getting into.
If I had known then what I know now what would have been a good persona for me? I was thinking I’d like to be a Scarlett Johansson-esk 23 year old writer with a few emotional problems. Maybe I was once locked up in a mental institution or maybe I once had brief romance with a male celebrity whom I refuse to reveal his name.
Maybe I would have been a bored housewife stuck at home with 7 ungrateful brats and a husband who ignores me. I may have started my own sex dungeon in the basement while the kids take their naps. I’d also be big on clipping coupons and make a mean lasagna.
But I guess it’s too late, I’m kinda stuck with this one. Oh well, I guess I’ll just have to do my best to make this one as interesting as possible. I could always get an addiction to an amphetamine or become a racist.