I’m a little late posting this but that is what back dating is for. Sunday March 4th is the official day to celebrate being Purple.
At this point I’m kind of known for saying I won’t do something and then one day changing my mind. I’m not surprised if people think I’m a little unsure about what I want in life and that’s probably the best way to look at it.
I consider myself childfree (as in not wanting children of my own) but I’ve learned to “never say never” because you never know how you’ll feel later on in life. Looking back at the person I was 10 years ago I would never have guessed I would be engaged to a guy who has an 8 year old daughter but life changes us along the way or maybe we change with life.
I’ve never wanted to have children and have known that since I was a teenager. I’m a sensitive girl and I think above everything; I just didn’t feel I had the strength to raise a child. Maybe someday I will reach a point in my life where I feel differently but it won’t be anytime soon.
I worry it will be something I’ll regret and sometimes I wonder if this emptiness I feel has something to do with this but then that really isn’t a reason to create a person. I take it very seriously, maybe too seriously, but I think it’s the biggest decision you can make.
So maybe I changed my mind about getting married and maybe I changed my mind about a few other things but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t sure about my feelings at that moment. I would never say never but I know 100% about how I feel now and that’s what matters.