Just Me

If there is one word I’ve been from the day I was born and will forever be is sensitive. I intensely feel things and cannot just shrug things off. Sometimes I hate that about me and sometimes I think it makes me very real.

I think if I could just let things be what they are then life would be inherently easier and maybe I’d be a little more happy on the basic level. I guess that has never been enough for me, I want to feel everything and absorb everything until I cannot anymore.

If you touch my heart you will be a part of me for the rest of my life even if it’s so far inside that I cannot see it anymore. If I lose faith in you I will not be able to completely let it go but if you reach out to me I will certainly try. I will do my best to love to the fullest degree because life is far too short not to.

If you disappoint me I will tell you and I will have to walk away. I’ve never been one to pretend that things are fine when they are not. If I am not happy, there is no way around it. I bruise easily and the hurt can last a long time.

If I loved you once I will love you forever. If you ever really need me I will be there but for the sake of my on heart I will keep my distance otherwise. Just because of what you were once in my life does not mean I owe you anything today. I owe you the truth and that’s it.

I am sensitive, complicated, trustworthy, emotional, approachable, fragile, paranoid, nervous, realistic and always ready to laugh. I don’t always like everything about me but I am what I am. There are no twists or hidden parts, you will always know what I am about whether you like it or not.

No apologizes, just me.

14 Comments

  1. heather(anne)

    February 8, 2007 at 8:47 am

    We are so much alike. Really, we are. I wish you lived in Ohio. We’d be very good friends.

  2. Robin

    February 8, 2007 at 9:20 am

    Awww…I’ll be right there :hug:

  3. Maureen

    February 8, 2007 at 10:23 am

    It’s a good thing to know who you are :thumbsup: It’s a great place to be in your life – makes growing and living and enjoying life so much easier.

  4. Star

    February 8, 2007 at 10:53 am

    GIRL! You should be so happy about how you are. I remember being able to live and feel everything with an intensity I couldn’t even describe. I unfortunately allowed too much pain and hurt and heartbreak in to the point where I am numb and cannot feel. It’s something that has haunted me for about a decade. I used to think it was great to be so unattached and then after a couple years, I would do ANYTHING to just feel something anything and got into a strange cutting addiction. Well I’ve been over that for a long time but the actual urge to cut never really goes away. I have just learned to let go of the urge by doing something else or telling myself out loud what destructive behavior that is and try to remember all the turmoil I went through because of it. That pretty much keeps it at bay but sometimes in my darkest moments, it still wants me. Well I’ve been working on opening my heart and letting others in. It took a long time to get here and it will take a long time to get back my heart, feelings, soul.. It’s a slow process and I just wanted you to know that you are so LUCKY! I wish I was there again. I live my life in my head, in stories I create, in characters I emulate. How I wish I could just be here… now.

  5. Tara

    February 8, 2007 at 12:01 pm

    I find people don’t generally like when you tell them the truth. But that’s their problem. :poke:

    Great post, Robin, my younger-twin-sister. :hug:

  6. Gemini

    February 8, 2007 at 12:05 pm

    That is why I love you! :hug:

  7. Robin

    February 8, 2007 at 12:18 pm

    Heather Anne – No wonder I hate you :tongue: Just kidding :hug:

    Maureen – I’m trying, it’s a process.

    Star – It’s always a process for all of us, I’m just glad I’m willing to see who I really am…not many people are.

    Tara – Hey sis :whack: :tongue: Back at ya!

    Gemini – :hug:

  8. Geeky Dragon Girl

    February 8, 2007 at 12:27 pm

    I’ve always been extremely sensitive since birth too. Unkind words affect me more deeply than others, and I get sensory overload all too easily (too bright, too loud, etc.) Oddly though I’m not very sentimental.

  9. Friglet

    February 8, 2007 at 3:39 pm

    I’m the same way. My husband gets frustrated and says, “Why do you have to be so emotional?!”

    Um……. 😉

  10. Heather B

    February 8, 2007 at 6:46 pm

    Must be a pieces thing 🙂 i’m overly sensitive too….

  11. jane

    February 8, 2007 at 8:40 pm

    I totally love this: “Just because of what you were once in my life does not mean I owe you anything today.” That post is very freeing.

  12. Mr. Fabulous

    February 8, 2007 at 9:25 pm

    Good for you. You are who are are and you should never have to apologize for it. I think you are totally cool and everything.

  13. Robin

    February 9, 2007 at 7:47 am

    You guys are so awesome…with these kind of responses I feel even better about posting it than I did initially.

  14. Leanne

    February 9, 2007 at 4:33 pm

    You’re such a kindred spirit, Robin. :hug:

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