Taking Its Toll
For many reasons my job is really starting to get to me and by get to me I mean effect my health. IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m so tired most of the time, often really depressed, agitated more often and I canÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t seem to do anything other than commute, work and rest.
The commuting is the worst part of it all. I think I might actually like my job more and be able to handle the stresses if it werenÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t for the 2-3 hours of driving everyday. And itÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s not just driving, itÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s traffic and numerous massholes taking over the road. Even Erik noticed IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m much more agitated and impatient when IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m driving. Just one dick on the road can ruin my mood for the rest of the day.
Lately work has been getting a lot more stressful and so much more annoying. It takes everything I have not to tell the manager to ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œfuck offÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â when he asks me the same question over and over again until he gets the answer HE wants. Just picture the dude from Office Space. I refuse to bow down to him and instead just continue to do my job. I donÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t give a shit if he complains to my boss anymore.
It doesnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t help that everyone in my office is unhappy and overworked. It doesnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t help that I have no windows anywhere near where I sit. With all of this bundled up together what you get is an unhealthy and unhappy Robin. Still, my job is very comfortable (as in I know it inside and out) and my position is tough to replace so I feel guilty leaving.
I just really have to find a place with a commute no less than a Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â½ hour each way and a solid place to work. Now that I know I will be living where I am for a few years I can maybe find something closer to me. I hope so, I just canÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t live this way.