I Must Live With It

I must admit, I feel a little bit like a failure. I gave up the position at the newspaper and only after a month really. I just don’t have that kind of time given I work 1 ½ away from home and it was really stressing me out. I realize the fact I gave this up means I’ve probably given up any chance of ever working with a local newspaper again.

I am ok with the fact I may not be able to do that because truth be told it isn’t what I want to do. I realize that by taking this kind of work could get me better work over time but it just wasn’t my forte :dunno:

The hardest part for me is that I feel like a failure and I feel awful for letting down the editor who gave me such a great opportunity. I wish I could explain all the reasons it was so hard for me but having ADD and having just worked an 8 hour day with nearly 3 hours of commuting and then sit in a meeting until 10pm was just too much for me. I felt myself kept phasing out during the meetings and simply not absorbing the information.

I have an email waiting for me from the editor and I’m afraid to read it. I just really hate disappointing people. Still, I thought hard about this decision and my personal wellbeing was at stake so I did what I felt I needed to do.

  1. Maureen

    September 14, 2006 at 12:16 pm

    Don’t beat yourself up over it. It simply wasn’t for you. Life is so very short. Way too short to waste time doing things that you don’t enjoy doing.

  2. Robin

    September 14, 2006 at 12:19 pm

    Maurenn – so true…SO true.

  3. Jolie

    September 14, 2006 at 7:20 pm

    Ok, now you have to tell us what the email said. Girl, you gotta do what’s right for you. It sounds like this might have been too much with a full time job already. Don’t feel like a failure…just a learning experience. :hug:

  4. Robin

    September 14, 2006 at 7:34 pm

    Jolie – Thank you…that helps to hear :hug: I’m seriously putting off reading the email…I don’t handle stuff like that well and it will bug me all night.

  5. RedBetty

    September 14, 2006 at 8:43 pm

    I wouldn’t beat yourself up about. It just wasn’t for you at least you tired, most people don’t even do that. :hug:

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