I’ve been in an ongoing suffocating rut for a long time now…a very long time and I just can’t seem to figure out how to get out of it. I have no energy to write anything at the moment but I hope the feeling comes back again.
I’m not sure what it was this weekend but at some point I just crashed in a hard way and haven’t been able to pull myself out. I feel bad what Erik has to put up with sometimes regarding my depression and everything. I just don’t think it’s fair sometimes how hard it has to be for him but then again I guess we take our turns.
I just wish I could find that magical something that can fix things but I know it doesn’t work that way. I spent too many years of my life thinking things could be fixed like that only to find out the hard way it’s definitely not the case.
I need to start doing something different.