This Rut

I’ve been in an ongoing suffocating rut for a long time now…a very long time and I just can’t seem to figure out how to get out of it. I have no energy to write anything at the moment but I hope the feeling comes back again.

I’m not sure what it was this weekend but at some point I just crashed in a hard way and haven’t been able to pull myself out. I feel bad what Erik has to put up with sometimes regarding my depression and everything. I just don’t think it’s fair sometimes how hard it has to be for him but then again I guess we take our turns.

I just wish I could find that magical something that can fix things but I know it doesn’t work that way. I spent too many years of my life thinking things could be fixed like that only to find out the hard way it’s definitely not the case.

I need to start doing something different.

  1. Maureen

    September 5, 2006 at 11:47 am

    It’s great that the two of you can hold each other up, when necessary. I know that you both appreciate that in each other, too.

    What do you think that you want to do differently? What’s holding you back from doing it?


  2. Robin

    September 5, 2006 at 12:49 pm

    I am unbelievably greatful for that…I can’t imagine what I would do without that man.

    It’s just me and my low self-esteem :kickcan:

  3. Heather B

    September 6, 2006 at 12:35 am

    It’s been a while since i’ve done my blog reading, and I appologize, I’ve been so busy these days as you can imagine, I often go through some major ruts my self. I hate it, and I always pray for the day that I jump out of it comes sooner rather then later. You will make it hun.

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