I’m in some kind of funk and it’s been getting a little worse every day it seems. Erik has definitely noticed it and I know it’s hard for him to see me like this. I don’t know if it’s a TOM thing or if it’s just that I’m having a hard time.

I had this beautiful weekend to enjoy and I just couldn’t seem to enjoy it. Something just made me not want to do anything and by not doing anything only made it worse.

I had this urge to enjoy the outside like going for a walk or a hike or a bike ride but I just couldn’t do it. I kept stepping out onto my back deck and would take in how beautiful it was outside. Then I’d just slump back inside as the energy just seeped out of me.

I hope it passes, I suppose eventually everything had to get to me.

  1. maureen

    August 7, 2006 at 11:50 am

    I hope it passes quickly for you, too. You are certainly living with a lot of stress right now. It’s no surprise that your body & mind are reacting by shutting off for a bit, conserving energy. It’s not necessarily a bad thing. Take advantage of the calm that your subconscience is trying to create – let it clear out the clutter so you can get back in focus.

  2. Robin

    August 7, 2006 at 11:51 am

    Maureen – Thanks, that’s a good way to look at it. I guess i just feel like watching tv most of the weekend when I live in such a beautiful place is a waste but I did get a lot of work done inside.

  3. Lysie

    August 7, 2006 at 1:19 pm

    I tend to have a delayed reaction stress and get depressed afterwards. Just don’t feed into to it entirely and it will pass. 🙂

  4. Robin

    August 7, 2006 at 1:22 pm

    Lysie – Yeah I’m trying to not give in too much and keep myself busy.

    If it’s nice out I’m determined to have dinner outside tonight and more often.

  5. Chris

    August 7, 2006 at 2:31 pm

    I always find that if I have a weekend, I can’t just do nothing without feeling incredibly guilty. Like I should be making the most of every moment, and man, I live by the beach, why aren’t I spending every second of my spare time there?

    But sometimes, I think, you just have to not do anything, except what helps you to relax.

    Keeping busy might be what you need though, to ward off the stresses.

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