A Tale of a Fat Girl

I just finished the very real and at times very painful audio book Fat Girl and it pulled out something inside of me I’m not sure I wanted to remember. I don’t even think it’s as much about being fat but about not being loved for who you are and/or simply hating who you are.

Her story is a true story about a girl who’s father disappeared as a young girl and was left with a mother who blamed her for everything. The girl ate and ate to fill a hole that couldn’t be filled. For years she was teased, ignored and even beaten by her own mother. The writer didn’t leave one detail not touched and that was something truly beautiful.

I did not have a childhood like she did and I’d honestly say most of my problems were not stemmed around my weight. Unlike her I was not beaten or abandoned. I also had quite a few friends and was not particularly lonely but I also don’t think I was ever as overweight as she was.

I still do know a lot of the pain she spoke about. I know how she felt embarrassed and felt the need to apologize for how fat she was. I know how she felt like people talked about it and pittied her behind her back. Hearing things like this I felt my heart tug a little for her.

What a great book, I don’t think even I (queen of her heart on her sleeve) could ever write anything so candid and open. Reading this book I so badly wanted to jump inside of the story (as a young girl) and embrace her so she wasn’t alone.

There is also a piece about why she wrote this book here, which I think gives even a little more insight into her story.

  1. T.

    July 10, 2006 at 12:58 pm

    That book reminds me of The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison. The characters are different but the theme is the same. It’s about a young girl who is treated so horribly that she has no sense of self worth or self esteem. It’s so sad but a very moving book. If you liked that one, you might like Bluest Eye but be warned that it’s heartwrenching. It is fiction but meant to represent young black girls of that era.

  2. Robin

    July 10, 2006 at 3:23 pm

    T – I actually read that in an English class in college when we had a period of reading Toni Morrison, unfortunately I don’t remember it that well but that happens with me with most books. So maybe I can get it on audio book :thumbsup:

  3. Gary

    July 10, 2006 at 9:43 pm

    Sounds like a good book.

    I hope things are going well for you.

  4. Robin

    July 11, 2006 at 11:35 am

    Gary – Yes things are going very well, thank you.

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