A Tale of a Fat Girl
I just finished the very real and at times very painful audio book Fat Girl and it pulled out something inside of me I’m not sure I wanted to remember. I don’t even think it’s as much about being fat but about not being loved for who you are and/or simply hating who you are.
Her story is a true story about a girl who’s father disappeared as a young girl and was left with a mother who blamed her for everything. The girl ate and ate to fill a hole that couldn’t be filled. For years she was teased, ignored and even beaten by her own mother. The writer didn’t leave one detail not touched and that was something truly beautiful.
I did not have a childhood like she did and I’d honestly say most of my problems were not stemmed around my weight. Unlike her I was not beaten or abandoned. I also had quite a few friends and was not particularly lonely but I also don’t think I was ever as overweight as she was.
I still do know a lot of the pain she spoke about. I know how she felt embarrassed and felt the need to apologize for how fat she was. I know how she felt like people talked about it and pittied her behind her back. Hearing things like this I felt my heart tug a little for her.
What a great book, I don’t think even I (queen of her heart on her sleeve) could ever write anything so candid and open. Reading this book I so badly wanted to jump inside of the story (as a young girl) and embrace her so she wasn’t alone.
There is also a piece about why she wrote this book here, which I think gives even a little more insight into her story.