Cause I Can

I should let it drop and I don’t know who from the other place knows of my blog but if I know them well enough they’ll find it eventually. I still have a few things to say and being I’m done with the other place so I figure I’ll let it out here.

Just a few points to make:

  1. I don’t think my boyfriend is a loser. Many have said he’s whiny, selfish and refusing to do anything for himself and I suppose I took that meaning you felt he was a loser. A loser being someone who can’t take care of themselves and makes others do it for them.
  2. I’ve never enabled my boyfriend or taken it upon myself to take care of him. He can take care of himself just fine and if he couldn’t I certainly wouldn’t have the energy to take that on myself.
  3. There is a difference between supporting and helping someone and enabling them, believe it or not.
  4. There is also a big difference between offering helpful advice and just telling someone to get over it. Don’t tell me that wasn’t the point you were trying to get across. You believed he refused to help himself when in fact he did and always has. Sometimes things are just hard at that moment and you have to find a way to get past it. Just because you can’t seem to get past it right in that moment doesn’t mean you won’t. I appreciate the assumption though.
  5. If you think I’m so whiny, immature and just looking for pity then why do you even read anything I have to say? Why do you bother? I certainly wouldn’t want to have anything to do with someone like that :dunno:
  6. I’m not running away scared, I am walking away because I have no interest in being ganged up on. You may not call it that but I do. When several people take turns trying to “tell you exactly who you are” it’s disturbing. Nobody on there knows me anymore than a screename.
  7. My life does not revolve around my boyfriend anymore than anyone else’s does. My relationship with him is very important to me and he’s the most important person in my life. He is my best friend and I will be there for him whenever I can be. Don’t assume by my screename :rolleyes: that it means all I am is his girlfriend and nothing else. Read my blog and you might get an idea of who I really am. In the long run you don’t know me unless you’re a personal friend and have known me in person for a while. Don’t presume to know shit about me.
  8. I blame myself for the fact that some of it got screwed up and that people didn’t know the whole story. Most of the time when I’ve posted it’s been because I was confused and a little lost. I rarely posted when things were good but when things are good and you are on a support site sometimes you just don’t think to share it.
  9. I’m an emotional girl and sometimes when things get really intense I freak out and to know me you have to realize that when I reach out at a time like that I’m needing someone to calm me down. When I’m “in the moment” I have been known to get slight irrational.
  10. Contrary to popular belief I can take criticism and in fact if you ask anyone who knows me I prefer people to be blunt with me than feed me cheerful shit. It’s all in how you go about it.
  11. If one of you did find your way here then maybe you should question what you are looking for? Do you want to make amends or are you trying to find more to use against me? Do you just want another chance “show me the truth” or prove who I “really am”? If so then you can just turn around and go home. If you are just trying to keep this stupid game going then I highly suggest you find a new hobby.

I may be only 28 years old but I’m very comfortable with who I am and where I am. I’m sure there is a lot I missed but I think I’ve made my point. Boy, that felt good to say even if nobody listens :cheesy:

  1. Gemini

    June 28, 2006 at 9:18 am


    Good job…

  2. lani

    June 28, 2006 at 4:11 pm

    i’m like you in that i get irrational at times and when i’m freaking out, i’m really not looking for advice or for someone to “fix” things. that’s my way of working through it and i need to have friends who won’t spazz or freak out along with me. they kind of have to be the types who won’t bat an eyelash if i say that i want to bash someone’s head in with a baseball bat. they know i wouldn’t do that and i’m just talking shit.

    i’ve noticed too that i’m more apt to share things when there’s chaos than when there’s calm. maybe it’s because i’d initially started journaling as a venting medium. not for the purpose of having a crowd’s approval.

  3. Robin

    June 28, 2006 at 4:15 pm

    Lani – you made some really good points. I find having my own place (my blog) I want to express both positive and negative things. I guess I feel comfortable here to be myself. There is too much judgement everywhere else and many people only want to hear what they want to hear. I make sure I surround myself by positive people that understand me and motivate me to be a better person.

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