Cause I Can
I should let it drop and I donÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t know who from the other place knows of my blog but if I know them well enough theyÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢ll find it eventually. I still have a few things to say and being IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m done with the other place so I figure IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢ll let it out here.
Just a few points to make:
- I donÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t think my boyfriend is a loser. Many have said heÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s whiny, selfish and refusing to do anything for himself and I suppose I took that meaning you felt he was a loser. A loser being someone who canÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t take care of themselves and makes others do it for them.
- IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢ve never enabled my boyfriend or taken it upon myself to take care of him. He can take care of himself just fine and if he couldnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t I certainly wouldnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t have the energy to take that on myself.
- There is a difference between supporting and helping someone and enabling them, believe it or not.
- There is also a big difference between offering helpful advice and just telling someone to get over it. DonÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t tell me that wasnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t the point you were trying to get across. You believed he refused to help himself when in fact he did and always has. Sometimes things are just hard at that moment and you have to find a way to get past it. Just because you canÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t seem to get past it right in that moment doesnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t mean you wonÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t. I appreciate the assumption though.
- If you think IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m so whiny, immature and just looking for pity then why do you even read anything I have to say? Why do you bother? I certainly wouldnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t want to have anything to do with someone like that :dunno:
- IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m not running away scared, I am walking away because I have no interest in being ganged up on. You may not call it that but I do. When several people take turns trying to ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œtell you exactly who you areÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â itÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s disturbing. Nobody on there knows me anymore than a screename.
- My life does not revolve around my boyfriend anymore than anyone elseÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s does. My relationship with him is very important to me and heÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s the most important person in my life. He is my best friend and I will be there for him whenever I can be. DonÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t assume by my screename :rolleyes: that it means all I am is his girlfriend and nothing else. Read my blog and you might get an idea of who I really am. In the long run you donÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t know me unless youÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢re a personal friend and have known me in person for a while. DonÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t presume to know shit about me.
- I blame myself for the fact that some of it got screwed up and that people didnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t know the whole story. Most of the time when IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢ve posted itÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s been because I was confused and a little lost. I rarely posted when things were good but when things are good and you are on a support site sometimes you just donÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t think to share it.
- IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m an emotional girl and sometimes when things get really intense I freak out and to know me you have to realize that when I reach out at a time like that IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m needing someone to calm me down. When IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œin the momentÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â I have been known to get slight irrational.
- Contrary to popular belief I can take criticism and in fact if you ask anyone who knows me I prefer people to be blunt with me than feed me cheerful shit. ItÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s all in how you go about it.
- If one of you did find your way here then maybe you should question what you are looking for? Do you want to make amends or are you trying to find more to use against me? Do you just want another chance ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œshow me the truthÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â or prove who I ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œreally amÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â? If so then you can just turn around and go home. If you are just trying to keep this stupid game going then I highly suggest you find a new hobby.
I may be only 28 years old but IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m very comfortable with who I am and where I am. IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢m sure there is a lot I missed but I think IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢ve made my point. Boy, that felt good to say even if nobody listens :cheesy: