DonÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢t call me a JAP
I was raised Jewish and went to a private school with other Jewish kids for a good part of my childhood. When I moved to a new area and started going to public school the idea of prejudice became much more real to me. I wasnÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢t bullied because I was Jewish or anything but little comments here and there brought an understanding to me I suppose I had to learn eventually.
In class once we had to go around the room and think of different things that reminded us of the dessert. I had to think of something besides what everyone else had already said so I said ÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬Ãƒâ€¦Ã¢â‚¬Å“Passover.ÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â I remember getting horrible looks all day and being called a few names. I was also called a JAP (Jewish American Princess) at least once.
It wasnÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢t until I stayed up one night to watch what I think was an HBO documentary of some kind about hate gangs that it really hit me. I remember sitting on the floor right in front of the television in awe of something I was still so naÃƒÆ’Ã†â€™Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â¯ve about. I remember distinctly when they showed the skinheads and how they said they hated the blacks and the Jews. Then they interviewed a black hate group who said they hated the whites and the Jews. I started crying because I couldnÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢t understand why everyone hated me 🙁
IÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢ve now drifted from all religion but Judaism will always be a part of me. I mean there is a reason I got my Hebrew name Chayah tattooed on me, inside I will always be Jewish. I really cherish a lot of the memories of learning Hebrew, studying for my Bat Mitzvah, learning about the Holocaust and just getting to be a part of it all. IÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â¢ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¡Ã‚Â¬ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â‚¬Å¾Ã‚Â¢m very proud of being Jewish and I think it is a big part of the person I am today.