Can’t say I didn’t try

In no way shape or form am I a great singer; I’m a decent singer and mostly when I’m in my car alone. I have however had numerous singing experiences in my life and I just must have always had this itch to sing. One major problem I’ve had about singing in front of groups is that I become paralyzed in front of crowds.

The first singing experience I remember was I believe in 4th grade when I was asked to sing the Chanukah prayer in front of an entire auditorium with another boy. For some odd reason I don’t remember being as terrified as I’ve been at other times and I must have been pretty good to be picked for this.

For some reason I desperately wanted to be in the Jazz Group (I think that was the name) in high school, which was a small group (6 or so) of mostly girls singing at concerts. All the girls in the group were the cream of the crop, they were the girls that always got all the solos and who could basically bring down the house. Twice I felt the need to try out for this group and despite how dizzy I would feel during the tryout in the band room. One tryout was with the song “Crazy For You” and I was going through my first breakup at the time. I remember practicing the song in the auditorium with a friend when I saw my ex near the doorway watch, I pretty much sang it to him. Yes, you can laugh 😆 The other time I was to try out I had laryngitis, I mean I couldn’t sing a single note. Mr. Bunten, the band director, was kind enough to give me another try even though I don’t think he’d ever consider putting me on and I’m sure my obvious fear didn’t help me any.

I also took the big leap of asking to sing a few songs in different band shows we had. I sang the song “Color of the Night” at one and I remember doing really well except for that one high note, damn! I even did a duet with a girl friend of mine to the Melissa Etheridge song “I’m the Only One” at a night where bands got to perform, my parents have a copy of that and I need to find it to BURN IT.

So now I’ll just settle for singing in my car, and I do it well if I do say so myself. Just today I did a great rendition of Taking My Life Away by Default, I would have had applause if anyone were listening.  I don’t know what possessed me to put myself through that kind of torture and humiliation but I suppose it was a learning experience I needed to make. Still, something about singing in front of a crowd I think was something I had to prove to myself, I desperately wanted to have that kind of courage. 

I got the idea for this post from Carla.


  1. Byron

    March 28, 2006 at 12:04 pm

    OMG, I once sang at a little open mike thing and my fresh breakup person was there and I felt like I was singing to him… You’re not alone in the cheeseball moment created by post-breakup craziness… LOL. Keep singing in the car – I’m sure it’s fabulous!

  2. Robin

    March 28, 2006 at 1:04 pm

    Always nice not to be alone…I will definitely keep up the singing in my car 😀

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