Learning about food again

I’ve basically had to start again from scratch to learn about what is good to eat for my body and for my health. I had issues with an eating disorder when I was younger and ever since I think I have trouble viewing food the right way. As a teen I used over-the-counter drugs and starved myself for a long period of time. It took me years to feel remotely comfortable around food again and now I need to readjust how I eat.

For a long time friends have always told me I don’t eat enough. When they say I don’t eat enough they mean for a meal often I wouldn’t eat enough and later I’d probably graze all day on snacks. I’m learning now about how a plate should look and how I should get in 3 real meals a day. Each meal should have a lot of veggies, a good amount of protein and a little bit of starches. It’s still so easy for me to forget this and go the easy route by having a bowl of cereal. Having the cereal means I didn’t get my protein or veggies. It all seems so simple but it’s almost like I had a lobotomy or something.

For weeks now, dealing with a doctor, I’ve been writing down everything I eat and how I feel later (tired, energized, stuffed) and when I look over it with my doctor later I realize how badly I am eating. Everyday around 2pm I get exhausted and this really frustrates me. Sometimes I go get myself another water and sometimes I get caffeine. I’ve had this probably with mid-afternoon crashing since high school at least. I would get home from school and often nap on the couch for an hour. Now when I get home from work I’m often way too tired to go to Curves even though I know I’ll feel better afterwards.

It’s strange to see how off my eating habits have been and how tough it is for my brain to understand what I need to do. I think a lot of it is also having ADD because I can’t seem to take the time to make a healthy meal but getting fast food is so much easier. Strange thing my doctor believes that all these years ADD has seriously effected my food issues. What a long road I’ve come so far and an even longer one spread out ahead of me.


  1. Byron

    March 10, 2006 at 7:51 pm

    Good for you for dealing with your eating habits! It’s tough work. I don’t think you should be too hard on yourself with regards to linking it to ADD. As far as I know, I don’t have ADD, yet I too am a lazy food prepper and will often go for the easy but bad choice. While I don’t have a doctor to help me, I do know that I should be eating better – and now that I’m typing this, I think I’m going to try harder as well. The hardest thing for me to give up are the carb heavy meals of noodles. I tend to crash after those… Hope your eating and health get better and thanks for the reminder that I should be paying more attention as well…

  2. Robin

    March 10, 2006 at 8:10 pm

    Glad I could help Byron. Actually my Dr. was who linked the ADD but in the long run it’s more to do with me being a picky eater, easily bored and a little lazy. I hope you find a way to go in a healthy direction.

  3. Gemini

    March 10, 2006 at 8:57 pm

    Great insight…

    Now on to the hard part… changing?

    I always shake my head a little when I hear people saying admitting it is the hardest part… you can say there is an problem until your blue in the face… The HARD part is actually changing.

    I know that you can do it! Good soul searching and being strict but also flexible in your choices will be key. Taking all of the foods that you are not picky about and making good quick yummy meals out of them… Maybe you could look into getting a Rachel Ray Cook book 30 min meals. Not a lot of time to make and at lease you will have many choices of things to make with the items that you do like.

    Hmmm that is actually a good idea for me too

    ((Hug)) 🙂

  4. Robin

    March 10, 2006 at 11:13 pm

    Ok, at first I thought you were speaking of me. I hope you aren’t. I’m working damn DAMN hard to change and putting in a lot of effort. I’ve made a lot of changes and they were not easy at all. I’m still shocked at how much I’ve been able to change.

    I don’t believe people can just change…to change or at least it doesn’t work for me. I have to dig deep inside myself to find all the shit buried beneath and then crawl back out. Crap, I seem to have to do that with everything. When I look back at how I used to eat 5 years ago or how depressed I was 5 years ago it blows my mind.

    Ok…that was pretty therapeutic.

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