Friendships and what is worth it

When will I just stop the charade and just let it all go?  I love all my friends and always will…even the ones that I don’t always have the most healthy of relationships with but I’m getting tired of putting in so much more effort than they do.  I just found out a friend of mine (who I was really close with in college) is engaged…I’m the last to know and I found out through another friend.  I was told she had big news but I was too impatient to wait.  I’ve continually tried to stay in touch with her and made plans to see her but I don’t want to bother anymore.  Another friend of mine has been really sick lately and I didn’t have a clue how serious it was.  She and I used to be the best of friends in college as well.

It just sucks and makes me feel like shit.  I know I’m always a bitch when I walk away from it all but it’s not worth it anymore.  I want a full and loving life not one full of these 1/2 pieces that just make me feel empty in the end.  I have a handful of really wonderful friends and they are worth so much more.

1 Comment

  1. Blueyes

    February 19, 2006 at 11:30 pm

    Sometimes a handful of friends are all you need 🙂

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