A little drained
I’m just a little drained lately, I almost feel like I’ve been on the witness stand or something for the past couple of days. I just wish that things didn’t get to me as much as they did. I think I handle things a lot better than I did a year ago and much better than I handled things several years ago. I guess we all learn how to handle things for ourselves and in our own time.
I have found though that despite me taking things a little too personally sometimes I also get anxiety attacks from time to time. This is frustrating because if it comes at the wrong time it’s so tough to control. I look at it all though and realize my anxiety attacks have been more often in the past year and that can’t be good for me. I assume this means I need to make some changes, which are never easy to do.
Sometimes I just wish time could stand still while I crawl away somewhere to pull myself together and then wander back into the big bad world a little more together. I suppose I could always just go for a walk but for some reason that doesn’t always help. When your heart is racing and your mind is racing and the more you try to stop it the worse you seem to get.
I guess you just manage, I find that is an important part of life.