A little drained

I’m just a little drained lately, I almost feel like I’ve been on the witness stand or something for the past couple of days. I just wish that things didn’t get to me as much as they did. I think I handle things a lot better than I did a year ago and much better than I handled things several years ago. I guess we all learn how to handle things for ourselves and in our own time.

I have found though that despite me taking things a little too personally sometimes I also get anxiety attacks from time to time. This is frustrating because if it comes at the wrong time it’s so tough to control. I look at it all though and realize my anxiety attacks have been more often in the past year and that can’t be good for me. I assume this means I need to make some changes, which are never easy to do.

Sometimes I just wish time could stand still while I crawl away somewhere to pull myself together and then wander back into the big bad world a little more together. I suppose I could always just go for a walk but for some reason that doesn’t always help. When your heart is racing and your mind is racing and the more you try to stop it the worse you seem to get.

I guess you just manage, I find that is an important part of life.


  1. Maureen

    February 1, 2006 at 3:39 pm

    Everyone’s got their own timetable for when they start to feel comfortable with the person who they are.

    There were dozens of times in my life when I thought I finally knew, was finally there. But, looking back on it now, I realize how ‘not right’ things felt when I was telling myself that everything was right. (Don’t know if that makes sense at all 😀 )

    You are right, when you say that we all learn how to handle things for ourselves in our own time. And, there is nothing wrong with that. Nothing at all. As long as you are always trying to be the best person you can be.

    My husband likes to say that there are over 6 billion unique types of emotional disorders known to mankind. (roughly one for every person living 😀 )

    We’ll all get through it. You just have to find the path that makes you feel comfortable.

  2. Robin

    February 1, 2006 at 3:44 pm

    Thanks Maureen, as always you just have a way with words. You know, you would have made a great therapist or counselor or social worker…you are so good with people and are so even keeled.

  3. Gary

    February 1, 2006 at 4:17 pm

    You are a really good person who deserves to be confident and happy. As you come to realise that more and more, you will become comfortable with your life.

  4. Robin

    February 1, 2006 at 6:34 pm

    Thanks so much Gary, I guess it’s one of the good parts of getting older. I must remember this when 30 gets closer.

  5. lani

    February 3, 2006 at 10:14 pm

    ((((((((((((robin)))))))))))))))))))) 🙂

  6. Gemini

    February 5, 2006 at 12:34 am

    Hey no cracks about being 30!!!

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